Chapter 8

After thinking what Macalister said she finaly made up her mind she decided to go.

Christian has been a big help and lots of fun to be around he has been trying to make her laugh but only got a few smiles out of her

It’s been 2 days since the chat with Macalister and he is glad that Zonica and Cristian are getting along very well, for he knows now that she wouldn’t be alone when she goes and stays with them that she will have a friend for when he is not around

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 “Zonica is there anything that you need to take, with it seems that Brian hasn’t been home for the past few days so if there is anything that I could get you just ask”Christian asked

Zonica ponderd on that for a moment “Well there is a few things I need from home some sentimental things I don’t want to loose and I have been in this hospital gown for 3 and a half days I realy need to change”She said pulling up her nose gesturing that she smells

Christian looks at her confused he doesn’t smell anything but can understand her point

He got an evil smirk on his face and said “So that is what I was smelling”holding back a luagh but faild

Zonica blushed and punched him in the arm feeling somewhat embarrassed  

"Ow...that hurt!" Christian said pushing out his bottom lip and giving her a puppy dog look

Zonica just gave him a smile and shook her head in disapproval

Knowing what he is trying to make her laugh but she doesn’t know if she is to comfortable around him to be herself  she doesn’t even know who she is nevertheless how be herself

She sighed and looked at the time 14:45 pm   Then she looked back at Christian “when are we going to go and get my stuff?” She asked with a bit of sadness in her voice

“We will be leaving in a few minutes, why something you want to do first?”

“Well yea … Do you think that you could get me some pen and paper?”

“Yes I think that I can do that” he said and with that he was of

A few minutes after Christian left MaCalester walked in

“How are you feeling” he asked her when he sat down next to her on the bed

“Well I am a bit scared because I don’t know what to expect when I get there and another thing I don’t know where there is?”She said with a big sigh looking down at her hands and the bruzes serrounding her wrists 

“Well you’ll find out soon I can’t tell you for I don’t even know where it is, it’s so that the enames can’t get to it, you’ll understand soon enough don’t worry about that” he said reassuring her 

There was silence  in the room and the two of them sitting there awkwardly looking at each other not knowing what to say but then Macalister broke the silence “Were is Christian” 

“O’ yes well I asked him to get me a pen and paper” she answered

“For what if I may ask?”

“Well I want to Wright a letter… to … to Brian. To tell him how I felt, something I could never tell him face to face” she replied looking down feeling ashamed of it somehow  

“And how are you going to Wright, I don’t think that you could with your wrists looking like they do” He said while taking her right hand and examining her wrists

“Well then … would you mind to do it for me …I know it is a lot to ask … but I trust you enough to ask you. I’ll understand if you don’t want to?

“NO … No I don’t mind doing it; infact I did promise you I’ll help where I can” He answered a little to fast but slowed down a bit at the end and blushing when he looked up and saw Christian standing at the door

Christian handed the paper and pen to Macalister and left the room because he knows that she wouldn’t be able to speak when he is there

“Shall we begin then” Macalister asked sitting comfy on a chair across from her ready and waiting

“Yea” She answered folding her hands together and lying on her side thinking of what to say

xxBrianxx

I wright to you this letter, to tell you how I feel

Life with you once had meaning and I felt save

But now I see that you’re like a dark cloud that haunts and torments me

Hatred fills my soal, it burns deep within

As you beat me till I can’t think,

Can’t act, Cant stand and bearly breath

I had anough of this torment and torture

Nothing will make up for the pain you coused

The physical scars you have put on my body

Will soon heal with time

But all the hurt and pain you have caused

Will always be rememberd

With the truth finaly said and out in the open

I will say goodbye to you

You might think that you own me but I belong to no-one

You may deside to look for me

 But you will waist your time

I Am Long Gone

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