Chapter 9

After gathering all Zonicas essentials thay headed to the airport and got on a flight to England, Macalester decided to come along and make sure that Zonica is comfortable and when thay got to there destination to make sure she settled in just fine.

The flight was long and silent exept for the acational smalltalk now and again but nothing to rant about.

When the plane finaly landed there was a long black limmo waiting for them.

Very tierd of the trip Zonica decided to just lay back and close her eyes and try to sleep…

ZONICA’S POV

I laid back and tried to sleep but all these thoughts just doesn’t want to rest and my head is spinning with possebilities and so I just laid there with my eyes closed and thought of whats going to happen and thoughts of the past.

I can’t believe that this is finaly happening I am finaly almost free from Brian and he will not find me if I am this far from him.

He will probably think that I excaped by myself again but this time he wouldn’t find me not again and not like the other three attempts that failed becuase I didn’t have a place to go, Brian has connections everywere, thats strainge way does he need all of them and who is all these people that work for him I have never seen or heard of them but that know of me and always where I am when I run away so now I hope being so far away that he will never find me again thinking back on what he did to me whenever thay found me and brought me back to him the first time he beat me and then through me into a dark room and locked me in there for a week with no food or water but I think ill take that again than any of the other two the second time he did the same thing just came in every morning and gave me ten laches with a whip and when he and his friends got drunk thay will all have a turn with me some will have there way with me and others will just spit at me and burn me with there cigarette’s and the third time thay found me it was the middle of winter and realy cold he will tie me to a pole outside and leave me standing there naked till my lips turned blue and I can barely stand from the cold then he will take me back to the dark room and whip me again the pain was undescribable and might I add he added salt to the whip to increase the pain just thinking about it makes my tummy turn and my blood freeze

I can’t believe Macalaster finaly convinsed me to attempt this again.I know Brian will be furies and determined to get me back I know that there is a reason for him putting up with me so long and he admitted it but he also said that when the time is right and I finaly know that I will wish for it to be over still after all that he has done to me why do I feel that there is something missing why do I feel that there is an empty pit inside of me is it him making me feel this way or is it something else or mayby someone else?

Looking over to my left side I watched Macalester sleep, he looks so peaceful with his light brown hair hanging slightly in his face

I havent realized that he truly was magnifficent just knowing that he is here makes me feel better about leaving. He’s been so kind to me, always helping and listening even if I don’t say anything. He has always been so cearing and I never realized everything he has done for me he is truly a good friend but thinking that he has to go back again makes me sad, sad that I wont see him and that I wont have anyone to talk to; sure Christian will be there but I don’t know him that well and I have a feeling that he is hiding something and I have a feeling that there is more to all of this than I really know

I don’t want anymore secrets I don’t think that I could handle feeling so insecure and always on my gward although i know I badly want this wall to be broken down that is around my heart,I don’t think that it will ever happen I don’t think that there is someone out there for me UGH!!

Why do I do this to myself why do I always think of things that will never happen and will never be. I just get my hopes up and then it just blows up in my face I once thought that Brian was the one for me but I know that he never truly loved me, he never truly cared for me and I just didn’t want to believe that and always looking for a way for him to love me all I wanted was to be wanted and to be cared for but instead I got the compleat opposite

Giving up and very frustrated she sits up and looks around for something to keep her mind buzy Macalister was still sleeping and Christian was just sitting there like a statue not moving a mussle just staring out of the window, not finding anything to do she decided to make small talk

“So…Where is this place?” Zonica asked Christian almost in a wisper not wanting to wake up Macalister

Christian’s gaze slowly turns to meet her’s trying to think of what to say and settled with

“Well I can’t realy say … I am not so sure myself”he answerd looking out of the window again

“O’ ok” Zonica said looking down at her hands

“I can tell you that; I think that it will be a good thing if you get some rest … it’s gonna be a long ride”

“But what if I can’t sleep?” she answerd with I sigh

“Well I can help with that”

Zonica stared at him with one eyebrow lifted not knowing what he has in mind and a bit scared to find out but she was curies

“And how are you gonna do that?" She asked with a bit of hessitation in her voice

Christian looked at her trying to desifer the look on her face he knows that she doesn’t trust anyone and that he will never give her a reason not to trust him …

“Well I know a few tricks … trust me it won’t hurt at all, you’ll just fall asleep and by the time you wake up we’ll be at our stop”

Zonica stared at him she can feel that her body is begging her for rest but her mind doesn’t alow it she also knows that she does need the rest but not sure if she wants to trust him

Christian moved over to sit next to zonica and his eyes locked onto her eyes not allowing her to lookaway

“Zonica I can see you are tierd and you can do with the rest you really don’t have to worry about anything because everything will be just fine Macalester and I will protect you and do anything to keep you save and out of harms way so its fine if you let your guard down once in a while and just relax its not good to be so tence everytime” he said with consern in his voice

“UGH! You sound just like Macalester you know that” she replyde giving up for she has heard that speech once to many times and laid back in her seat

Christian smurked at her knowing he has won “It’s only because we want to help” and lifted his hand to her head and brushed a strand of hair out of her face

Zonica stared at him wondering what his doing when his hand brushed some loose strands of hair from her face and before she could say anything darkness got a hold of her and she fell into a dreamless sleep.